I was making an attempt to listen to some 2012 Eurovision season songs lately. So far I mannaged to download only the songs of the Norwegian preselection - simply because the access to them was the easiest, and I am lazy, and don't have much free-time lately. Anyway, I uploaded those Norwegian songs to my blackberry yesterday, in order to listen to them on my way to work the day after - a thing which didn't happen, because I missed my bus and therefore was very tense, with no mood for music.
But I did listen to those songs on my way back from work. I certainly did. I went through the songs in my usual impatient manner, and by this I mean - listening to the first ten seconds of each song, and then, if I lose interest, switch to the next song. Most songs were really good and nice to listen to, but nothing special. And then...came some first seconds of a song I was never going to press "next" upon...
I was totally charmed as my ears were filled with the delicate sounds of a piano intro, with the most touching melody and chords in the whole world. I was captured as the song developed in such a flawless way. The real test - the chorus test, didn't let me down either, The song was totally perfect. You know, when you listen to most songs, you tend to think criticly: "mmm...at this point I would have done it differently", and so on. However, while listening to this song, I was repeatedly thinking: "Wow. This is how I would have wished to do it, if only I could". And as the ending lyrics of the first chorus came:
"...If you don't cry, then why should I"
I just started to...cry, uncontrollably! Unexplainable tears were flowing from my eyes. It was as if this song reminded me of everything I ever wanted to be, but couldn't. This is the song:
Norra Foss Al-Jabri: Somewhere beautiful
I know nothing about the singer, nor about the song-writer yet, but I will do my little reasearch. I feel, however, that this song had to be created by someone who's just like me, in some way. Crying just at the mere listening to a beautiful song for the first time is not something that usually happens to me. It does, however, happen to my with movies, especially Danish Dogme movies. With music it rarely happens to me, unless the song is really personally meaningful in some way.
Here are the few songs that managed to make me cry, in my whole lifetime:
Mikael Erlandsson: Tills jag möte dig
Musically, not such a special song at all. But it's connected in my memory to the first person I've ever fallen in love with, who sang this specific song to another girl. I was listening to this song a lot in the year of 2004. I couldn't speak Swedish then, but I understood the meaning of the line: Jag saknar ord att beskriva hur jag mår - I lack words to describe how I feel - and it was a sensitive line to me, because it was a first love, and I really lacked the words to explain to myself why I was feeling so needy and so bad.
Sofia Karlsson: Moesta et errabunda
There's no You-tube link to this song, but it's a wonderfully beautiful track with a very movig and sorrowful melody. I discovered it accidantly on my playlist after I broke up with a boyfriend. I was walking on my way back from university to the bus home. It was dark and raining and I was freezing and had no coat or umbrella as it was supposed to be summer. Suddenly this song came up in my headphones, and the beautiful sad melody made me understand how lonely and helpless I felt outside in the rain, recalling how this ex-boyfriend ignored me completely the whole day at school and just laughed with his friends. The tears that came as a result from the music were really liberating...
Roxette: You don't understand me (abbey road version)
Marie Fredriksson is my absolute idol. I adore her fierce kind of beauty, and her heavenly voice which is so dominant and powerful, yet can be so fragile at times. I always liked this song - this is my ultimately favorite Roxette ballad. This version, however, was new to me and I listened to it for the first time after I've read about Marie's illness and everything she's been through. This video is poweful and inspiring in itself - and together with her story, it made a strong impression on me. I didn't cry right after watching it - only almost - but the blast of emotions was so strong and I wouldn't have minded if I did.
So those are the songs that are capable of making me cry. Oh...events, memories and music! This combination can sometime create a mixture of emotions that leads to awkward outbursts of feelings that only the one who feel them fully understands...
