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Showing posts with label torsk på tallinn. Show all posts
Showing posts with label torsk på tallinn. Show all posts

Monday, February 13, 2012

A little movie about loneliness

That's the English translation of the name of the movie I was watching last valentine's day. It's a kind of a black humor comedy in Swedish, called Torsk på Tallinn - En liten film om ensamhet in the original version. The movie is a fake documentary about a group of single men, all of whom are loosers, good-for-nothings or just weirdos.

They all go on an organized trip to Estonia, in order to find a bride in the baltics, a foreigner who'd not recognize their unattractiveness immidiately. The most weird and the most hopeless of all is Ronald (played by the divine Robert Gusstavsson which i totally admire), who lacks all social skills, lives alone and listens to dansband music in his free time. 


I have ambivalent feelings toward this movie. On the one hand, it's really funny and witty in a sarcastic way and I could understand most of the humor in it even though I'm far from being Swedish. On the other hand, I assume that cultural differences prevented from me from understanding one crucial thing. And that thing is: What was so bad about all of these men?

They didn't seem so repeling and terrible to me. In fact, some of them seemed quite handsome and cute. I wouldn't have minded marrying some of them. Even a little shy and clumsy Ronald doesn't seem so bad to me. But I guess that was the point of the movie. A foreigner would never be able to identify the outcasts of a different culture. In addition, let's just say that in my country, the typical looser who's unattractive for the opposite sex is defined somewhat differently than what they probably define it in Sweden, and respectively, in that movie.

Now let's talk valentine's day in general. In general, I hate valentine's day. I had a chance to celebrate it only once in my life, on 2009, when I was lucky enough to have a boyfriend around February. Celebrating valentine's was nice but kind of meaningless, since that relationship was not so deep and meaningful (or at least now I see that).

In addition, valentine's day always reminds me of all the guys that hurted me in the past. Not that there were so many who did that. But the experience of being rejected is so unpleasant that it's multiplied.

But enough with the negative bulshit. These last days were really great days for me. I feel like I've got endless enegry inside me, and many planes for the upcoming future. If only I had the courage to carry out to the latter all of them, and be ready to face an adventure...I love adventures, and I love challanges - the bigger the better. I even started loving them more and more during the last year.

And still, I didn't reach that stage yet, when you feel that you're ready to take the risk, maybe leave everything you have and worked for behind you, and gamble your whole life for the chance of winning something bigger than life. But maybe soon.