Words. Music. Fashion. Photography. And other means of capturing beauty. The background of this blog, by the way, is showing off the fairest place in the whole world - Sergels torg!
"Just came back from the local grocery store with some snacks and drinks before Melodifestivalen! Oh...those are marvelous days in which all you need in order to achieve pure happiness is a good internet connection, a proper link for downloading songs, a few coins to buy some goods and ESC community facebook friends who post MF related statuses which make you feel it's a real holiday! Happy Melodifestivalen everyone!"
Marvelous days indeed. I'm so looking forward for all of this MF excitement to begin! I've downloaded the songs today, and gonna load them into my blackberry tomorrow. I'm gonna listen to them on my way to work and feel the MF spirit, the Swedish spirit, the ESC community spirit...which I love so much.
This reminds me strongly of last year, when I've just started to work at H&M. It was also MF time then, and I was taking the bus to work every morning, listening to 'Oh my god" (by Le kid, not The moniker) "Desperados", "E det fel på mig" and more favorites. I remember wanting so bad to buy a yellow dress after totally falling in love with Linda Bengtzing's performance. I wonder what MF outfits would inspire me this year!
Right now I hear my annoying rommate closing the door to her room and turning off the lights. Let her go on with her boring, ordinary, sterile life while I'm having fun leading my messed-up, caffein-full, productive and creative industrial commercial life! In about two weeks I'm out of this appartment, and wouldbe able to live my life without a strict lady who thinks this appartment (which she doesn't even own) is some kind of a university programme you need to be accepted to.
But now it's 02:26 minutes to MF, so let's not deal with unpleasant things, and let the fun begin!
I was making an attempt to listen to some 2012 Eurovision season songs lately. So far I mannaged to download only the songs of the Norwegian preselection - simply because the access to them was the easiest, and I am lazy, and don't have much free-time lately. Anyway, I uploaded those Norwegian songs to my blackberry yesterday, in order to listen to them on my way to work the day after - a thing which didn't happen, because I missed my bus and therefore was very tense, with no mood for music.
But I did listen to those songs on my way back from work. I certainly did. I went through the songs in my usual impatient manner, and by this I mean - listening to the first ten seconds of each song, and then, if I lose interest, switch to the next song. Most songs were really good and nice to listen to, but nothing special. And then...came some first seconds of a song I was never going to press "next" upon...
I was totally charmed as my ears were filled with the delicate sounds of a piano intro, with the most touching melody and chords in the whole world. I was captured as the song developed in such a flawless way. The real test - the chorus test, didn't let me down either, The song was totally perfect. You know, when you listen to most songs, you tend to think criticly: "mmm...at this point I would have done it differently", and so on. However, while listening to this song, I was repeatedly thinking: "Wow. This is how I would have wished to do it, if only I could". And as the ending lyrics of the first chorus came:
"...If you don't cry, then why should I"
I just started to...cry, uncontrollably! Unexplainable tears were flowing from my eyes. It was as if this song reminded me of everything I ever wanted to be, but couldn't. This is the song:
Norra Foss Al-Jabri: Somewhere beautiful
I know nothing about the singer, nor about the song-writer yet, but I will do my little reasearch. I feel, however, that this song had to be created by someone who's just like me, in some way. Crying just at the mere listening to a beautiful song for the first time is not something that usually happens to me. It does, however, happen to my with movies, especially Danish Dogme movies. With music it rarely happens to me, unless the song is really personally meaningful in some way.
Here are the few songs that managed to make me cry, in my whole lifetime:
Mikael Erlandsson: Tills jag möte dig
Musically, not such a special song at all. But it's connected in my memory to the first person I've ever fallen in love with, who sang this specific song to another girl. I was listening to this song a lot in the year of 2004. I couldn't speak Swedish then, but I understood the meaning of the line: Jag saknar ord att beskriva hur jag mår - I lack words to describe how I feel - and it was a sensitive line to me, because it was a first love, and I really lacked the words to explain to myself why I was feeling so needy and so bad.
Sofia Karlsson: Moesta et errabunda
There's no You-tube link to this song, but it's a wonderfully beautiful track with a very movig and sorrowful melody. I discovered it accidantly on my playlist after I broke up with a boyfriend. I was walking on my way back from university to the bus home. It was dark and raining and I was freezing and had no coat or umbrella as it was supposed to be summer. Suddenly this song came up in my headphones, and the beautiful sad melody made me understand how lonely and helpless I felt outside in the rain, recalling how this ex-boyfriend ignored me completely the whole day at school and just laughed with his friends. The tears that came as a result from the music were really liberating...
Roxette: You don't understand me (abbey road version)
Marie Fredriksson is my absolute idol. I adore her fierce kind of beauty, and her heavenly voice which is so dominant and powerful, yet can be so fragile at times. I always liked this song - this is my ultimately favorite Roxette ballad. This version, however, was new to me and I listened to it for the first time after I've read about Marie's illness and everything she's been through. This video is poweful and inspiring in itself - and together with her story, it made a strong impression on me. I didn't cry right after watching it - only almost - but the blast of emotions was so strong and I wouldn't have minded if I did.
So those are the songs that are capable of making me cry. Oh...events, memories and music! This combination can sometime create a mixture of emotions that leads to awkward outbursts of feelings that only the one who feel them fully understands...
Everyone who knows me can tell that I'm an obsessive blog-opener. Every once in a while, when I feel like sharing things that I currently do, think or feel - I open a new blog. If I have the necessary time, ofcourse. So, now is such a time, and therefore, I'm opening a new blog.
Oh, it feels so good! To write what one has inside one's mind again, to express oneself.
I made this blog a "general" blog - no special theme except for the obvious "creative" theme - I'll surely post here photographs that I take, and maybe some fashion-related and music-related items, because that's what I usually do. I don't want, however, so stick to a certain theme - "fashion blog", "photography blog" and so on. That's beacuse I'm a perfectionist, and as one, I hate moving away from a theme, after I've decided on one. That's why the theme, this time, is gonna be "everything".
So here there'll be notes about everything. Music. Fashion. Art. Thoughts. Feelings. TV shows. Even politics, maybe, if I feel like it. Notes about everything. Because life is far too much complicated for a single-theme blog!
